The fear: the real reason why there's been no content for a while

For personal reasons this website hasn't been updated for quite some time. Having got quite close to finally being able to put the book together, over a period of a few months I found it harder and harder to get motivated, thinking most of what I did was rubbish. With events in my private life also taking a turn for the worse, my motivation levels became non-existent over the following months.

Looking back now, I'm starting to realise I had got a big dose of "the fear" and my confidence in my work become so low that I found myself with a crippling inability to even look at my work, let alone edit anything. The events in my private life just gave me an excuse to give up on everything when, being realistic, I had already started the giving up process because I was full of fear.

I have been torn for some time about whether to share this but I have started to become aware that the fear is pretty common in the creative industry and feel like, in a time when people are being more outspoken about mental health issues, its probably quite important to share it.

Suddenly its now 18 months on and, whilst I have still been getting out and about taking photos (albeit less so than before due to returning to full time work), I now find myself with 18 months worth of editing to catch up on! Now is the time for me to face the fear, stop listening to the doubt, fight against my perfectionism, stop self-sabotaging and get back to work and, hopefully, start putting the book together in the near future. If my work isn't good enough, fine, but I'll never know if I keep hiding.

If any of the above sounds familiar, I found a great article about the fear that helped me finally identify what was going on for me and, who knows, may help you too. https://thecreativelife.net/the-fear-and-how-you-can-fight-it/